Friday, May 30, 2008 @ 10:12 PM
everything still complicated
Until now i cant figure out what on your mind...
I have been trying my best to always keep me update with what happening...
but my dear i cant really keep myself update with you...
Yes, i denied many times that i was jealous...
It was so obvious i knew you noted it...
But then again...
nevermind...
Sometimes i asked myself...
Maybe i should walk away from you...
but then again... i can't
and never...
b'cos i always feel there smth that want me to wait...
I have been trying my best to always keep me update with what happening...
but my dear i cant really keep myself update with you...
Yes, i denied many times that i was jealous...
It was so obvious i knew you noted it...
But then again...
nevermind...
Sometimes i asked myself...
Maybe i should walk away from you...
but then again... i can't
and never...
b'cos i always feel there smth that want me to wait...
@ 10:02 PM
My boring OFF DAY...
What did i do the whole day??
Nothing... really nothing...
I woke up by his call...talk to him for a while and then continue my sleep...
Unfortunately my aunt turned up at my house unexpectedly...
So...whatever lah...
Continued to sleep till noon...
Wash up..
and sat at the sofa watching television for almost 8 hrs...
and i only move away from the sofa less than even 30 mins...
from tv programme to dvd...
With my hand non-stop folding the clothes...
very the fucking tiring...
Well but i took 30 mins nap while folding clothes...
heheheheh
But at all times my mind wasnt together with me...
Even my soul was not there went i was resting......
Rubbish...
Aniwae, today celeste first day working at sakea sushi...
GOOD LUCK>> my dear...
ouh ya...
tell me everything...when u end okay...
Nothing... really nothing...
I woke up by his call...talk to him for a while and then continue my sleep...
Unfortunately my aunt turned up at my house unexpectedly...
So...whatever lah...
Continued to sleep till noon...
Wash up..
and sat at the sofa watching television for almost 8 hrs...
and i only move away from the sofa less than even 30 mins...
from tv programme to dvd...
With my hand non-stop folding the clothes...
very the fucking tiring...
Well but i took 30 mins nap while folding clothes...
heheheheh
But at all times my mind wasnt together with me...
Even my soul was not there went i was resting......
Rubbish...
Aniwae, today celeste first day working at sakea sushi...
GOOD LUCK>> my dear...
ouh ya...
tell me everything...when u end okay...
@ 9:53 PM
i been tagged
A) People who have been asked to must write their answers on their blogs (or whatever) & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.
if your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
Damn him... who does he tink he is...GET OVER IT>>> AND FIND myself someone who care for me...
if you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
HOLIDAY TO PARIS....>>> EIFFEL TOWER...
what will your dream wedding to be like?
A place decorated with my favourite colours even if it's not his favourite colour...With all my loves one and darling around me...And me standing my love..
are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
YES!!! very indeed confused... but now all i want is just to read what on your mind..
what's your ideal lover like?
Someone who will love me for who i am. Someone who doesn't care how i look or what i wear.He must be taller than me, CLever cos i'm stupid..Simple person..Know how to attract my attention even by doing nothing...Care for me and love me..
which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone is fully blessed... but it will be much more blessed with you loving him as well....
how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
I'll wait as long as i can... but i'll get over it as soon as he married or found someone...If i really love him... all i wanted to see are his happiness and it doesnt matter if i hurt myself...
if the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
ATTACHED!!! c'mon i'll walked away man... it much better to get someone who single then destroy other gal happiness... get me...
is there anything that makes you unhappy these days?
I get jealous easily.. and yes i denied it everytime...
is being tagged fun?
Tagged is fun... if it came from FUN people
how do you see yourself in ten years time?
ten yrs.. tht mean i'm 28th..i'm supposed to be married and be happy with him...or..i'm still waiting for him...
who are currently most important people to you?
FAMILY< FRIENDS aka my darling<< HIM<<
what kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
She is damn fucking BEST FRIEND...
If you want to kill your boredom as her out...She know how to make the environment happening..
would you rather to be single and rich or married but poor?
Single and Rich...
so, i could continue to flirt around and of'cos buy anything..
what's the first thing you do every morning?
GRAB MY PHONE>>>WHERE IS IT??
even with my eyes closed..
would you give all in a relationship?
Depends, if he really the one i'm getting married to..
YES>>if not.. never
if you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
Well it happen before..
Someone who always there to listen to my nagging...
I'll pick the one who constantly waited for me...
Instead of the one who keep asking me for my answer...
what type of friends do you like?
Someone who try and understand what going on with my life...
And always there with me through thick and thin....
if given the chance to turn back time, will you?
I would like to turn it back to the beginning of year 2007..
but then again...
I LOVE WHAT I AM NOW ESPECIALLY WITH HIM AROUND>>>
what is the last thing you would do before you die?
I want to see him..smile and happy with his love one...
that if he is married...
but i still want to see his last smile..
5 people to do this
CELESTE!!
RAKINAH!!!
HELMY!!!!
SYASYA!!!
WANNIE!!
FIVE ENOUGH LAH
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.
if your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
Damn him... who does he tink he is...GET OVER IT>>> AND FIND myself someone who care for me...
if you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
HOLIDAY TO PARIS....>>> EIFFEL TOWER...
what will your dream wedding to be like?
A place decorated with my favourite colours even if it's not his favourite colour...With all my loves one and darling around me...And me standing my love..
are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
YES!!! very indeed confused... but now all i want is just to read what on your mind..
what's your ideal lover like?
Someone who will love me for who i am. Someone who doesn't care how i look or what i wear.He must be taller than me, CLever cos i'm stupid..Simple person..Know how to attract my attention even by doing nothing...Care for me and love me..
which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone is fully blessed... but it will be much more blessed with you loving him as well....
how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
I'll wait as long as i can... but i'll get over it as soon as he married or found someone...If i really love him... all i wanted to see are his happiness and it doesnt matter if i hurt myself...
if the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
ATTACHED!!! c'mon i'll walked away man... it much better to get someone who single then destroy other gal happiness... get me...
is there anything that makes you unhappy these days?
I get jealous easily.. and yes i denied it everytime...
is being tagged fun?
Tagged is fun... if it came from FUN people
how do you see yourself in ten years time?
ten yrs.. tht mean i'm 28th..i'm supposed to be married and be happy with him...or..i'm still waiting for him...
who are currently most important people to you?
FAMILY< FRIENDS aka my darling<< HIM<<
what kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
She is damn fucking BEST FRIEND...
If you want to kill your boredom as her out...She know how to make the environment happening..
would you rather to be single and rich or married but poor?
Single and Rich...
so, i could continue to flirt around and of'cos buy anything..
what's the first thing you do every morning?
GRAB MY PHONE>>>WHERE IS IT??
even with my eyes closed..
would you give all in a relationship?
Depends, if he really the one i'm getting married to..
YES>>if not.. never
if you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
Well it happen before..
Someone who always there to listen to my nagging...
I'll pick the one who constantly waited for me...
Instead of the one who keep asking me for my answer...
what type of friends do you like?
Someone who try and understand what going on with my life...
And always there with me through thick and thin....
if given the chance to turn back time, will you?
I would like to turn it back to the beginning of year 2007..
but then again...
I LOVE WHAT I AM NOW ESPECIALLY WITH HIM AROUND>>>
what is the last thing you would do before you die?
I want to see him..smile and happy with his love one...
that if he is married...
but i still want to see his last smile..
5 people to do this
CELESTE!!
RAKINAH!!!
HELMY!!!!
SYASYA!!!
WANNIE!!
FIVE ENOUGH LAH
Thursday, May 29, 2008 @ 9:00 AM
It seem COMPLICATED
Finally... i went to swimming again after almost 3 mths..
haix... well my skin getting darker that it...
hehehe
I enjoy myself so much.... Eventhough it was only short hour swimming...
but unfortunately it turn my hair very very rough...
i shampoo it many times wash it over and over again still the same....
LOLX....
I really miss hym...alot..
At times i just want to walk to him and scold him...
but when i think again...
as long the smiles remain... i dont mind...
being the one getting hurt this time round...
**i am jealous but denied it when i'm with you...
Cos i want to see those smile forever...** Eventhough i saw u flirt around but when you told
me you are not...*** i dont want to argue...** cos of those smiles****
haix... well my skin getting darker that it...
hehehe
I enjoy myself so much.... Eventhough it was only short hour swimming...
but unfortunately it turn my hair very very rough...
i shampoo it many times wash it over and over again still the same....
LOLX....
I really miss hym...alot..
At times i just want to walk to him and scold him...
but when i think again...
as long the smiles remain... i dont mind...
being the one getting hurt this time round...
**i am jealous but denied it when i'm with you...
Cos i want to see those smile forever...** Eventhough i saw u flirt around but when you told
me you are not...*** i dont want to argue...** cos of those smiles****
@ 8:56 AM
DO IT
1)At what age do you wish to be married?When Someone found and willing to accept my pathatic attitude...Maybe after 21 that if someone can chg me
2) If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 buddies you'd take and why?Celeste, Nisa and Nabilah.So when at night i wouldnt be afraid with celeste around, Nisa can cool my tempered and my anger when i get angry and when cold i can cuddle up to her. With nabilah around everything will be much easier from complicated to easy pie.. And her jokes always filled the laughter in the air
3) Where is the place that you want to go the most?PARIS>>PARIS>>PARIS>>PARIS
4) If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be?ouh please please... I want to go PARIS with my love one
5) Do you believe you can survive without money?NO NO NO NO...NEVEREVERYWHERE I GO I NEED MONEY...EVEN IN MY DREAMS
6) What are you afraid to lose the most?i afraid of losing my love one...and losing hym
7) If you win $1 Million, what would you do?SHOP SHOP SHOP...and buy surprises for all my loves one
8) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?Depends on situation... but i love it more if my other partner the one who confess to me..
9) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.She cool, smart and pleasant person...
10) What is your dream GIRL/BOY?Taller than me... understand me..Someone who will change my fucking attitude...NO FINANCIAL AND EMOTION problem.. :)
11) What kind of person do you hate the most?someone who use others to get what they want... :)
12) If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?yes JANUARY 2007...
13) Unconditional Love, what does it means to you?hmm... nth..but i can look for you the meaning if you want....
14) Any wisdom to share with your reader?*never stop searching just because you think he/she the one*
15) If there's ever a war(or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place or fight?C'mon.. they are having war at MY PLACE>>>why should i run... I MUST FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT
16) If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?MY PATHATIC SO WHATEVER ATTITUDE>...
17) Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?ALL>>>>my problem>>>> NO-ONE>>>
18) What's your weakest point?When i get too jealous or too angry...I will cry...
19) Think of the person who tagged you to do this quiz. What song do you relate him/her to?SPONGEBOBSQUAREPANT!!!
20) What is the one thing you regret most?never study when i was given a chance..but i nvr regret the path at where i am now...
21)Name people who you want them to do this question.Everyone on MY MINE FOREVER LIST!!!
2) If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 buddies you'd take and why?Celeste, Nisa and Nabilah.So when at night i wouldnt be afraid with celeste around, Nisa can cool my tempered and my anger when i get angry and when cold i can cuddle up to her. With nabilah around everything will be much easier from complicated to easy pie.. And her jokes always filled the laughter in the air
3) Where is the place that you want to go the most?PARIS>>PARIS>>PARIS>>PARIS
4) If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be?ouh please please... I want to go PARIS with my love one
5) Do you believe you can survive without money?NO NO NO NO...NEVEREVERYWHERE I GO I NEED MONEY...EVEN IN MY DREAMS
6) What are you afraid to lose the most?i afraid of losing my love one...and losing hym
7) If you win $1 Million, what would you do?SHOP SHOP SHOP...and buy surprises for all my loves one
8) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?Depends on situation... but i love it more if my other partner the one who confess to me..
9) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.She cool, smart and pleasant person...
10) What is your dream GIRL/BOY?Taller than me... understand me..Someone who will change my fucking attitude...NO FINANCIAL AND EMOTION problem.. :)
11) What kind of person do you hate the most?someone who use others to get what they want... :)
12) If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?yes JANUARY 2007...
13) Unconditional Love, what does it means to you?hmm... nth..but i can look for you the meaning if you want....
14) Any wisdom to share with your reader?*never stop searching just because you think he/she the one*
15) If there's ever a war(or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place or fight?C'mon.. they are having war at MY PLACE>>>why should i run... I MUST FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT
16) If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?MY PATHATIC SO WHATEVER ATTITUDE>...
17) Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?ALL>>>>my problem>>>> NO-ONE>>>
18) What's your weakest point?When i get too jealous or too angry...I will cry...
19) Think of the person who tagged you to do this quiz. What song do you relate him/her to?SPONGEBOBSQUAREPANT!!!
20) What is the one thing you regret most?never study when i was given a chance..but i nvr regret the path at where i am now...
21)Name people who you want them to do this question.Everyone on MY MINE FOREVER LIST!!!
Tuesday, May 27, 2008 @ 11:14 PM
When the ending??
Do you ever understand what i mean by single but complicated?? Sometimes i just wish someone would walk up to me and explain it to me...
Why do guys even bother to know about me??
Don't they have better things to do??
I just realised one thing that used to happen once in my life...
the pain that i felt in my heart about 3 yrs ago happen again....
..~your smile is the only cure for my heart~
Haix... i dont noe how i'm supposed to explain it to all...
Celeste, you told me that your friend want to know me ryte??
But this is what i always say to all from february 2008...onwards....
Till now my words still the same...
-Would you want me to hurt you???-
-I dont think you want to get hurt from me-
-I rather be single than hurt anyone-
~Perhaps you shouldn't even get into a relationship end up will only get hurt or hurt ppl~
Till now i stand firm on this words...
~i will walk and vanish away from you.... the day... you found "the one"... but till then..
i will always be here...accompany you...whenever i could be.....~
Why do guys even bother to know about me??
Don't they have better things to do??
I just realised one thing that used to happen once in my life...
the pain that i felt in my heart about 3 yrs ago happen again....
..~your smile is the only cure for my heart~
Haix... i dont noe how i'm supposed to explain it to all...
Celeste, you told me that your friend want to know me ryte??
But this is what i always say to all from february 2008...onwards....
Till now my words still the same...
-Would you want me to hurt you???-
-I dont think you want to get hurt from me-
-I rather be single than hurt anyone-
~Perhaps you shouldn't even get into a relationship end up will only get hurt or hurt ppl~
Till now i stand firm on this words...
~i will walk and vanish away from you.... the day... you found "the one"... but till then..
i will always be here...accompany you...whenever i could be.....~
@ 10:50 PM
No-ones understand
Is it supposed to be joke??
Celeste called and yes again she down at CCK...
strange....but anything to keep those tears away from her...
At times when she called she was crying...
I knew she was hurt again... if only i could keep track of those ppl who hurt her...
therefore to remind her not to repeat the same mistake...
but yes love is blind...
you can like everyone on earth....
but when it comes to love...
you knew you will get hurt...
~sometimes it hard to figure out what happening~
Whatever okie...celeste...
please please dont give my number unless the person stole it from my blog...
~i'm single but complicated~
Celeste called and yes again she down at CCK...
strange....but anything to keep those tears away from her...
At times when she called she was crying...
I knew she was hurt again... if only i could keep track of those ppl who hurt her...
therefore to remind her not to repeat the same mistake...
but yes love is blind...
you can like everyone on earth....
but when it comes to love...
you knew you will get hurt...
~sometimes it hard to figure out what happening~
Whatever okie...celeste...
please please dont give my number unless the person stole it from my blog...
~i'm single but complicated~
@ 8:09 AM
life without it
Finally after the whole exciting days...
My handphone was left at CCK showroom... Damn it man...
I only realised it when i already out walking towards the MRT station...
Turned Around and i realised my manager has left the building itself.... AHX!!!!
i'm so careless...
itx like i been curse by the broken chair...
DAMN IT...
haix sian le...
Today, officially off..
but i have to rush down to pick up my missing pieces... my handphone...
I could not sleep the entire night...
Every now and then i will turn to see if my phone have any msg.. but when i turned my hp is not there.... i panick... and realised that i forgot to bring my phone back home...
ON the SUNDAY,
I had to admit i was fucking ANGRY or shld i say JEALOUS..
but instead of showing my jealousy i turn it to a fume anger...
And i fucking hungry that day...
THank god celeste willing to come down from suntec all the way to cck...
thank alot dear...
but unfortunately....
she bring along hairie/hairi??(azie the ex-bf)
and both of them keep saying i'm fat!!
through out the whole shopping centre...
with his lame jokes that cool down my tempered.
Celeste thank for coming that day...
cos i actually i almost cried due to my jealousy....
Sometimes itx hard to understand what going on...
But it clearer when u explain it...
But you did flirt with them.... and i saw it...
it was obvious...
Eventhough i choose to believe you...
not because i dont trust what i saw.... but because...
i see those smiles remain there forever.....
My handphone was left at CCK showroom... Damn it man...
I only realised it when i already out walking towards the MRT station...
Turned Around and i realised my manager has left the building itself.... AHX!!!!
i'm so careless...
itx like i been curse by the broken chair...
DAMN IT...
haix sian le...
Today, officially off..
but i have to rush down to pick up my missing pieces... my handphone...
I could not sleep the entire night...
Every now and then i will turn to see if my phone have any msg.. but when i turned my hp is not there.... i panick... and realised that i forgot to bring my phone back home...
ON the SUNDAY,
I had to admit i was fucking ANGRY or shld i say JEALOUS..
but instead of showing my jealousy i turn it to a fume anger...
And i fucking hungry that day...
THank god celeste willing to come down from suntec all the way to cck...
thank alot dear...
but unfortunately....
she bring along hairie/hairi??(azie the ex-bf)
and both of them keep saying i'm fat!!
through out the whole shopping centre...
with his lame jokes that cool down my tempered.
Celeste thank for coming that day...
cos i actually i almost cried due to my jealousy....
Sometimes itx hard to understand what going on...
But it clearer when u explain it...
But you did flirt with them.... and i saw it...
it was obvious...
Eventhough i choose to believe you...
not because i dont trust what i saw.... but because...
i see those smiles remain there forever.....
Thursday, May 22, 2008 @ 1:40 AM
my days...
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It took me 5 min to put the puzzle together but it took me forever to put my heart together...
All i ever want was peace .... and this is what i wish to see again....jpg)
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Damn.. he really could sing well....jpg)
I suddenly became a photo freak... i love my own pics....jpg)
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that what i usually did at work...
actually there alot more pic of all my darling...
but itx not nice to put their pic without them knowing...
@ 1:13 AM
as time passed
A month passed real fast.. 36 more days to my very 18th...
How i'm spending my b'dae? i have no fucking idea...
Well, maybe itx a cursed to laugh at people and maybe itx a cursed for me to be happy...
Each time i feel that the day going to be fucking pleasant... Damn it..
Problems began to crawl their way up to me...
I will woke up late for work..
I can't find my clothes..
or worse my $$$ seem to be dissappearing fast enough...
Damn it..
Cool ryte...
But no matter how angry, sad, upsad..
Whenever he called, msg or even just by looking a glance at him...
i feel peace..
I dont noe... dont asked my why...
Some may say...
me and hym..are couples...
BUT WE ARE NOT>..
at tymes..
i asked myself why and why i being naive...
then again my heart just kept silence...
and my mind went blank...
Life is fill with question...
why? i dont noe..
but all i care now..
is FAMILY>>>FRIENDS>>>HYM>>>
How i'm spending my b'dae? i have no fucking idea...
Well, maybe itx a cursed to laugh at people and maybe itx a cursed for me to be happy...
Each time i feel that the day going to be fucking pleasant... Damn it..
Problems began to crawl their way up to me...
I will woke up late for work..
I can't find my clothes..
or worse my $$$ seem to be dissappearing fast enough...
Damn it..
Cool ryte...
But no matter how angry, sad, upsad..
Whenever he called, msg or even just by looking a glance at him...
i feel peace..
I dont noe... dont asked my why...
Some may say...
me and hym..are couples...
BUT WE ARE NOT>..
at tymes..
i asked myself why and why i being naive...
then again my heart just kept silence...
and my mind went blank...
Life is fill with question...
why? i dont noe..
but all i care now..
is FAMILY>>>FRIENDS>>>HYM>>>
Tuesday, May 6, 2008 @ 1:44 PM
yoha...amigos
Hello everyone...
sorry if i didnt keep u all update like usual..
itx all due to lack of internet connection and some certain virus that causing my com unhealthy...
Aniwae...
i'm flirting arnd as usual... no longer malay dude this time round more to chinese..
basically i'm busy currently...
feel free to drop me msg on my hp...
93372190..
ouh ya...
F.Y.I.
IF YOU HAVE WHOEVER PLANNED TO GET MARRIED
I HAVE A KENDARAT TEAM HERE AT SERVICE...
THX
sorry if i didnt keep u all update like usual..
itx all due to lack of internet connection and some certain virus that causing my com unhealthy...
Aniwae...
i'm flirting arnd as usual... no longer malay dude this time round more to chinese..
basically i'm busy currently...
feel free to drop me msg on my hp...
93372190..
ouh ya...
F.Y.I.
IF YOU HAVE WHOEVER PLANNED TO GET MARRIED
I HAVE A KENDARAT TEAM HERE AT SERVICE...
THX
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Suriah
-Prefer to be known as ARIEL OR CUYA OR ANASYAH
-REACHING THE AGE OF 91 ON THE 27 JUNE..
-AS BEEN SINGLE FROM 2008
-BUT DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH A GUY
-BUSILY WORKING UNDER THE SWATCH GROUP AS A SALES PROMOTER
I'm always known to be very busy/lazy person to almost everyone
Unlike any other girls; i'm more to myself therefore i claim myself unsocialize person
But that doesnt mean i'm not friendly or lame and nonsence person..
I'm prone to talking crappy non-stop and being having a untamed tamper
I tend to be difficult and stubborn person.
wishlist: Grant me this will ya?
-Love and Care-Socialize me with the unknown world
-A trip to Paris(the effiel tower)i must say
-Finding my way through life
-Making Profit in a unbeatable form
-Walking a life of my own
-Hoping that he will love me
-A collection of newer fashion design
-A New Lappy(my own spoilt le) -A collection of HK
TILL THEN I GUESS
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