Well,
i miss you guys all damn much...
all i ever wanted for my b'dae was nth but to spend my times with my friends that's all....
Nothing else matter...
People or shld i say friends/bestie/darlingz
dont waste your money to get me anything...
cos what i only want is YOUR TIME...
thatx all...
Nth else matter....

Me...18th...
oH!! please lah....
i dont even behave like a 18th yrs old...
I more lyk a pathatic brat'x
hahhaha....

This is what i predicted to do on my b'dae...
a) spend my time with my darlings...
b) took a ride on e sgflyer...
c) out for breakfast and dinner
d) watch movie
lastly, camwhoring...

BUT......
it chg.... even though i have told them how much i just want to spend my time with them....

haix....
whatever it is...
and how my b'dae gonna be...
i'm gonna face it unprepared....

YES!!!!!
me 18th ....in 2 days...



HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY
TO SAKINAH

Wishing you a blessed year ahead, successfull career and stay happy always

It was supposed to be my very very good day... but it end up as my most damn day...
I wanted to go amk badly to buy shoes..
but in e end i nvr go...
Send celeste to work go cck to eat with my cashier sister and anderson...
the go wld walk a while....
go home.. try to sleep but can't...














~i'm nt important... they are~
~i hold to my tears but it still flow unstop~









~ For e first time in my entire 17PLUS years...
today i felt as i'm e most UN impt~

Finally...
i'm able to do some minor shopping .... as in go out buy things...
or should i get it straight shoes!!
I'm super tired...
Aniwae alot of things have been happening this week...
Sweet memories and Sad.... It hard to describe those moment..
Last week, Tuesday was the last time i meet cyc... Damn i miss hym... dats for sure.
From Thursday to Sunday, I was at PC SHOW... Suntac city level 6..
Booth no.. i forgot...
The first 2 days i was there...
Yeah i admit very tiring but each tyme i saw ben the tiredness seem to vanish that's for sure..
But then on the third day... early in e morning he still treating me good..
All the sudden, he change... after A told hym that if he disturb me...if cyc saw he will get punch by hym.... then starting from that onwards he kept pestering saying... that
I can't concentrate, keep thinking about cyc....
Ben was lyk being an idoit... really... opps maybe he is an idoit........
he nvr realised that i have a feeling for hym... and i treasure every moment that i could see him..
but he act so different from atrium...
Ahx nevermind now itx over...
I draw the line out to hym.... I'm e cashier, u're e salesman...
we are nothing...
Then e last day, ben try to treat me good again... but i pretend i never saw hym... i ignored hyn totally... i sorry.. i were thinkin that maybe i would want to stay with hym but then i can't lor..
b'cos he really nvr trust...
so too bad...
Thank god
Cyc, have been there for me...
I know i could be an idoit at times but...i really worried if i 'm going to separate from cyc...
I have count and i actually have stick to cyc from march until now.....

Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don't read the questions till you've named the 20 peoples. At the end of this choose 3 peeps to do this :]
1. Celeste
2. Sallie
3. Nisa
4. Zube
5. Radhy
6. Yati
7. Michelle
8. Kak Shidah
9. Kak Mas
10. Jeff
11. Hairul
12. Abg Az
13. Nabillah
14. Wannie
15. CYC
16. Ben
17. Mimie
18. Anderson
19. Rachael
20. Syam

-How did you meet #14?
=) Well, she the sweet gerl in school and we are in the same class during sec 3.

-What would you do if you hadn't met #1?
Maybe i wouldn't even pass my N'level and never knew how to express my emotion.

-What if #9 and #20 dated?.
rather amusing cos #20 is married.

-What if #6th and #17th dated?
oh my god, i just hope it wont happen. she older than hym by 3 yrs.unless it fated.

-Describe #3.
The one who always cheer me up when celeste BULLY me..
heheheh

-Is number #8 attractive?
yes she is.. first look at her i thought she's a chines

-Decribe #7
she's funny and she have big attitude but overall she great :P

-Do you know any of #12's family members?
i only know his god little brother

-What will you do if #18th confesses that she/he loves you?
ouh no!!!! i will run away from everyone. i rather we just be this way as friends

-What language does #15 speak?
english, mandarin

-Who is #9 going out with?
let me see.... seriously i'm not really sure

-How old is #16?
he is 23.

-When was the last time you spoke to #13?
tuesday i msg her... spoke to her on isit sat or sunday?!

-Who is the favourite singer/band of #2?
avenged sevenfold!

-Have you ever dated #4?
i think so during my secondary school days

-Would you ever date #1?
if i'm les yeah... she's my girlfriend.

-Is #19 single?
no, she's with bryan...

-What's #10 last name?
good i dont even knew

-Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
No way.. even though he okay... but NO!!

-What's the school of #3?
ITE Clementi

-Where does #6 live?
Woodlands!-

What's your favourite thing about #7?
she's always keep me busy

-Have you ever seen #2 naked?
NOPE!!!

They're the 3 babes/hunks who'll do this thing:
CELESTE..
NISA...
NABILLAH...

There was time when i wish that the time pause and never move or change..
It complicated... i wanted to give others a chance but i'm afraid of hurting them..
I rather let it be this way...
Maybe i should walk away and left everyone including hym...
but i dont noe why i'm still want to wait..
~ Those moment when i'm in your arms keep me going to wait for you...~
~ I never want to miss a smile on your face keep me waiting~
But until when???
Why would i admit that i have a stead when i'm not even attached?
Sometimes i knew itx really makes other think that way but it really complicated..

why? is she still contacting you...
why? those pictures still remain there...
Are you hoping to be back again?
The day she walk away... she goes w/out a word to stay...
Now she came back asking for you once again...

Will there be chances?? that you might be with her again?
Will there be miracles that you will walk with her?

It hurt to see those pictures
It hurt to see she chasing you..
It hurt more to see you with her...

All i'm asking for was just those smiles on your face...
If it going took forever...
If itx going to take years
If i'm the one suffered...
I dont mind for your happiness...

~I promised to leave you and walk away..
the day you found someone to stay...~

by then you would never even realised that you once entered my life