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Wednesday, June 25, 2008 @ 5:46 PM
My little Something
Well,
i miss you guys all damn much...
all i ever wanted for my b'dae was nth but to spend my times with my friends that's all....
Nothing else matter...
People or shld i say friends/bestie/darlingz
dont waste your money to get me anything...
cos what i only want is YOUR TIME...
thatx all...
Nth else matter....

Me...18th...
oH!! please lah....
i dont even behave like a 18th yrs old...
I more lyk a pathatic brat'x
hahhaha....

This is what i predicted to do on my b'dae...
a) spend my time with my darlings...
b) took a ride on e sgflyer...
c) out for breakfast and dinner
d) watch movie
lastly, camwhoring...

BUT......
it chg.... even though i have told them how much i just want to spend my time with them....

haix....
whatever it is...
and how my b'dae gonna be...
i'm gonna face it unprepared....

YES!!!!!
me 18th ....in 2 days...



HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY
TO SAKINAH

Wishing you a blessed year ahead, successfull career and stay happy always

Friday, June 20, 2008 @ 2:48 PM
a day with them
it been ages since i went out with my fellow buddies...
went out at arnd 10.30am to msl..... to collect the testimonal with celeste and helmy...
head down to cck to pass the microwave plate that i took from amk showroom for cyc...

Celeste, Helmy and Anderson accompany me buy a dress.... i really mean A dress...
i was thinking to get the brown dress but dont have my size so turn out i took the red colour....
Celeste said the colour look lyk ang pao... but when i tried on it... then she took a picture of me in it.... she say seducing...
hahahahahahah... only she saw mah... then that mean i seducing her... hahahhahahah
RUBBISH!!!!!!


Actually... i want meet cyc on ytd but i read his msg to meet today but i forgot so i ask celeste out... then when he text me again... i go chk my previous msg... ya my fault....
really.....
sorry...
nvr mind... the dress cost me 30 bucks i could get shoes for that...
but nvrmind... i love it anyway...
thx guys for accompany me...




~i really miss cyc damn much~







~celeste asked me this question is it i love him or just lyk him...~
i can't answered tht question not now for sure...







but i"m sure that on my b'dae i noe the answer...

Wednesday, June 18, 2008 @ 8:38 PM
Unexpected DAY!!!
It was supposed to be my very very good day... but it end up as my most damn day...
I wanted to go amk badly to buy shoes..
but in e end i nvr go...
Send celeste to work go cck to eat with my cashier sister and anderson...
the go wld walk a while....
go home.. try to sleep but can't...














~i'm nt important... they are~
~i hold to my tears but it still flow unstop~









~ For e first time in my entire 17PLUS years...
today i felt as i'm e most UN impt~

@ 8:57 AM
it reaching soon
Finally...
i'm able to do some minor shopping .... as in go out buy things...
or should i get it straight shoes!!
I'm super tired...
Aniwae alot of things have been happening this week...
Sweet memories and Sad.... It hard to describe those moment..
Last week, Tuesday was the last time i meet cyc... Damn i miss hym... dats for sure.
From Thursday to Sunday, I was at PC SHOW... Suntac city level 6..
Booth no.. i forgot...
The first 2 days i was there...
Yeah i admit very tiring but each tyme i saw ben the tiredness seem to vanish that's for sure..
But then on the third day... early in e morning he still treating me good..
All the sudden, he change... after A told hym that if he disturb me...if cyc saw he will get punch by hym.... then starting from that onwards he kept pestering saying... that
I can't concentrate, keep thinking about cyc....
Ben was lyk being an idoit... really... opps maybe he is an idoit........
he nvr realised that i have a feeling for hym... and i treasure every moment that i could see him..
but he act so different from atrium...
Ahx nevermind now itx over...
I draw the line out to hym.... I'm e cashier, u're e salesman...
we are nothing...
Then e last day, ben try to treat me good again... but i pretend i never saw hym... i ignored hyn totally... i sorry.. i were thinkin that maybe i would want to stay with hym but then i can't lor..
b'cos he really nvr trust...
so too bad...
Thank god
Cyc, have been there for me...
I know i could be an idoit at times but...i really worried if i 'm going to separate from cyc...
I have count and i actually have stick to cyc from march until now.....

Saturday, June 7, 2008 @ 12:19 AM
Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don't read the questions till you've named the 20 peoples. At the end of this choose 3 peeps to do this :]
1. Celeste
2. Sallie
3. Nisa
4. Zube
5. Radhy
6. Yati
7. Michelle
8. Kak Shidah
9. Kak Mas
10. Jeff
11. Hairul
12. Abg Az
13. Nabillah
14. Wannie
15. CYC
16. Ben
17. Mimie
18. Anderson
19. Rachael
20. Syam

-How did you meet #14?
=) Well, she the sweet gerl in school and we are in the same class during sec 3.

-What would you do if you hadn't met #1?
Maybe i wouldn't even pass my N'level and never knew how to express my emotion.

-What if #9 and #20 dated?.
rather amusing cos #20 is married.

-What if #6th and #17th dated?
oh my god, i just hope it wont happen. she older than hym by 3 yrs.unless it fated.

-Describe #3.
The one who always cheer me up when celeste BULLY me..
heheheh

-Is number #8 attractive?
yes she is.. first look at her i thought she's a chines

-Decribe #7
she's funny and she have big attitude but overall she great :P

-Do you know any of #12's family members?
i only know his god little brother

-What will you do if #18th confesses that she/he loves you?
ouh no!!!! i will run away from everyone. i rather we just be this way as friends

-What language does #15 speak?
english, mandarin

-Who is #9 going out with?
let me see.... seriously i'm not really sure

-How old is #16?
he is 23.

-When was the last time you spoke to #13?
tuesday i msg her... spoke to her on isit sat or sunday?!

-Who is the favourite singer/band of #2?
avenged sevenfold!

-Have you ever dated #4?
i think so during my secondary school days

-Would you ever date #1?
if i'm les yeah... she's my girlfriend.

-Is #19 single?
no, she's with bryan...

-What's #10 last name?
good i dont even knew

-Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
No way.. even though he okay... but NO!!

-What's the school of #3?
ITE Clementi

-Where does #6 live?
Woodlands!-

What's your favourite thing about #7?
she's always keep me busy

-Have you ever seen #2 naked?
NOPE!!!

They're the 3 babes/hunks who'll do this thing:
CELESTE..
NISA...
NABILLAH...

Tuesday, June 3, 2008 @ 2:31 PM
A moment that can keep me going...
There was time when i wish that the time pause and never move or change..
It complicated... i wanted to give others a chance but i'm afraid of hurting them..
I rather let it be this way...
Maybe i should walk away and left everyone including hym...
but i dont noe why i'm still want to wait..
~ Those moment when i'm in your arms keep me going to wait for you...~
~ I never want to miss a smile on your face keep me waiting~
But until when???
Why would i admit that i have a stead when i'm not even attached?
Sometimes i knew itx really makes other think that way but it really complicated..

why? is she still contacting you...
why? those pictures still remain there...
Are you hoping to be back again?
The day she walk away... she goes w/out a word to stay...
Now she came back asking for you once again...

Will there be chances?? that you might be with her again?
Will there be miracles that you will walk with her?

It hurt to see those pictures
It hurt to see she chasing you..
It hurt more to see you with her...

All i'm asking for was just those smiles on your face...
If it going took forever...
If itx going to take years
If i'm the one suffered...
I dont mind for your happiness...

~I promised to leave you and walk away..
the day you found someone to stay...~

by then you would never even realised that you once entered my life

Sunday, June 1, 2008 @ 11:56 PM
Complicated Heart
Is it hard for you to let me know what going on?
Sometimes i realised you took my for granted. When u need me around you; you appeared but if you have others with you, i'm nothing but an invisible person.
Don't you have heart? Can't you see what going on?
May i ask what you really want??
Why should i bother to wait and see you smiles to keep you happy?
When i suddenly become a saddist, i'm happy to see myself suffering. Oh My Gosh!!!
I've been dreaming to see myself HAPPY but till when???
Must i be the one waiting?
I'm coming 18th...in less than a mth.
I want to celebrate my 18th birthday with the one who i'm going to be with...
But now? HOW??
WHO? is my another piece??
CYC/BEN or who???
or maybe it fated for me to be single.
I have been SINGLE for almost 4 mths...
not because i can't find another guy but because i'm afraid to get hurt again.
Why bother? Anyway, who care right. The one who suffer is me not them.
Maybe it just a path that i had choose to walk on.
~ at times i just wish you could see ~
There was times when i dream of you
There was times when i wish you will come
There was times when i just wish you would understand...
But maybe you would just never realised that i wanted you to fill in the empty space in my heart.
When i felt that i should let you go and give others a chance to fill in my emptiness
you then felt those jealousy and began to check on me...
Cos you CARED FOR ME...
but when u know that i let others go to be with you...
you no longer bothered to even read my heart...
I dont get you...
I know you always the one to text, called my hp in the morning and also the last person to end my msg at night.
I know i nvr bothered to text and called you. because...
Do you know it hurt to wait for your reply that take forever
I love to send special text greeting to special people but then again
you told me you hate to received those thing and you cant even bothered to read them. But then u seem to know that i'm sad when u said those thing and you know how to heel those saddness.
When i asked you if i found another darling...then how?
you replied me saying you would congratulate me...
So will that make you happy then? but you say no?
and when i ask if you are not happy why would you congratulate me...
you never replied...
you just let those question in the thin air...
RUBBISH!! i want answer not making myself like a idoitic person searching for my own answer...
most of my question you nvr answer...
at times you just chg the topic...
my dear.. i want answer

~ Should i move on..Or should i wait even if it takes forever!!
ITX COMPLICATED HEART>>>>
you tell mi you're leaving.. and i just want you stay...


profile: My Little Discreet

Suriah
-Prefer to be known as ARIEL OR CUYA OR ANASYAH
-REACHING THE AGE OF 91 ON THE 27 JUNE..
-AS BEEN SINGLE FROM 2008
-BUT DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH A GUY
-BUSILY WORKING UNDER THE SWATCH GROUP AS A SALES PROMOTER


I'm always known to be very busy/lazy person to almost everyone
Unlike any other girls; i'm more to myself therefore i claim myself unsocialize person
But that doesnt mean i'm not friendly or lame and nonsence person..
I'm prone to talking crappy non-stop and being having a untamed tamper
I tend to be difficult and stubborn person.

wishlist: Grant me this will ya?
-Love and Care
-Socialize me with the unknown world
-A trip to Paris(the effiel tower)i must say
-Finding my way through life
-Making Profit in a unbeatable form
-Walking a life of my own
-Hoping that he will love me
-A collection of newer fashion design
-A New Lappy(my own spoilt le) -A collection of HK

TILL THEN I GUESS
links: The escapes to the another side.

Sallie
Celeste
Zube
Radhy
Skina
Syasya
Muhii
Helmy
NJ
Lynaina
Wanie
Shaggy
Izzat
BaRoN

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