Welcome 2009,
Amazingly... I cant believe time actually flies so fast... It felt just like last month i received a black paper and i just started working... I can believe that it almost 10 mth i waited too...
OMG...
Wishing everyone who read my bolg a BIG HAPPY NEW YEAR_2009

The 18 things i done in 2008.
1. Change My JOb twice.
2.Perm My Hair.
3.Start myself a collection of RINGS
4.Pampered myself with treats and manicure.
5.Celebrate my 18th b'dae with my Bestiee.
6.Manage to grow 6 cm more my bust..
7. Buy clothes lots of them.
8. FALL IN LOVE WITH CYC.
9. Feel what itx like to be hurt by people.
10. Feel what love and hurt means.
11. Go to ETP with my darlings.
12. Know more friends.
13. Learn to be more independent and less emotional.
14.Learn to accept the fact bout my self.
15. Start to give and make complain bout almost everything.
16. Love my self.
17. Appreciate my parents and family.
18. Last but not least Lost my precious.

-When it times to strike, you just dont stop.
-When God loves you itx because god create you for who you are and what you are..
You took his hand and walk, without looking back even for once.All the sudden everything seem so surreal and unrealistic. Finally, I told you there was nothing wrong with me.... Itx all started from you. At times you never think about others....all you care is only about yourself.. The talk was only about you. You totally forget a simple question like how your day...
Then i realised it always been like this... itx always all the him... it was never like how you promise...So much for all the promises...
i felt so left out... u stop to be the one who cheer me up... u stop to be the one who listen to all my stories... u stop to be someone closer to me...

I realised you drifted apart again and again... it always happen...
At times i can no longer control my anger... you too now take forever to reply me...
I thought it only happen once... now it happen again...
It always them... where me?
haix... i'm in no place to argue this...
I dont even think you actually read all my entries...
It very hard for me to let the truth out.. you make it so simple....
itz not trust me...
To last this long needs courage and persevere...
but then are you sure...
"is it just a busstop...an interchange or isit just a temporary rest stop..."
you are hurting not one ppl but many... in the end you hurt urself again..
so much for where i am...
my unfated love reveals all.

Q:If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
(1)We be together...Never stop loving him
(2)Higher Pay with Better Career
(3)Better Communication with Family and Friends

Q: Did you ever think to yourself and wonder what will happen to you in the future?
*Duh!!! always... i'll always wonder what i'll be working in 5 yrs down e road...

Q: Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
* yes..of cos... i'm afraid itx smth that i not expecting...

Q: Would you change yourself for the person you love?
* I'LL TRY... no promises... if he will love me for who i am but i'm willing to chance for the better not fro the worse...thtx it...

Q: Do you belief in Love?
* Yes....always...

Q: How long do you intend wait for him?
* well, until i stop to hope for him..tht is...

Q: If the person you are in love is secretly liking someone, what would you do?
* Ask him if itx true..i'm willing to back-out for the sake of his happiness... even though i'm hurt.

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
* yes... recently... they just dont get it... but atleast someone always try to get my smile back.. especially the sudden surprise...

Q: Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
*strangely, yes when i'm in unfamilliarize plac or whenever i'm next to yyou...

Q: Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
*NOW!!! only him...

Q: Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
* yes... but i still hoping..

Q: Are you happy with your life?
* so-so only...

Q: Would you give your all in a relationship?
* i'll give my best but no promises.

Q: What type of friends do you like?
*Those who be there for me.. and those who actually understand me...!

Q: Do you often wish there was something you could change?
* always always

Q: What will you look at first when you first set eye on a girl/guy?
* their body...their clothes and face...

Q: If your lover betrayed you, what will be your reaction?
* walk away silently and let it be..

seriously, it been long since i help out at Kendarat...
and ytd over at taman warisan, istana kampung gelam... i actually help helmy out with the kendarat... the team was pretty super even though we actually short handed.... so itx abit shocking on how we managed to pull this off...
Thx to helmy thtx is...
and his team...
I was super exhausted but atleast i enjoy e song over there...
but honestly, my mind was elsewhere on that whole day...
so i dont actually notice if i put on a black face or if i actually lost appetite that day...

i off to update my oothher blog take care

This going to be quite a long entry....
today i off... well it not that i wanted to off on this day but well someone wanted me to off today but a friend used to tell me "no matter how long you took to planned something but when on that day it never goes has planned you must never regret it"- don't worry i wont regret cos i know you will somehow cheer me up when i'm down ryte, my friend.

so, i went to e back to open up MoneySmart saving account that actually include some investment along with it but then mummy told me that maybe itx better to open up the MSA account instead so i told mummy why not i just open two of it? okay ryte? hehehe..
mummy just say-up to you lah. hehehe.

ANiwae, today is celeste e 18th birthday but she wanted to count down to 12.00 midnight so much for her b'dae. Well, i bought this cake-black forest at bangawan solo. so we waited under my block...actually she want to cut it at blk 204 near the pit area but hey i told her NO WAY i'm hate and scared of dark..ouh ya... and i gave her the winnie the pooh balloon too...




Its just a simple cutting cake...
but if those who know me well.... I HATE CAKE... I DON'T LIKE IT A BIT... BE IT CHOCOLATE OR EVEN STRAWBERRY OKAY... DONT FORCE ME TO EAT IT...

Now the thing i pick on the way along this week...

I love this watch... please buy for me!!! ouh ya ONLY THE PINK COLOUR>>>

this Christmas tree is made out of different soft toys...
thy have almost all of my favorite teddy -hello kitty to carebears to pooh and even winnie.

Janice hand... she dont even realised the big mark.
i keep joking tht i bit her hand...knock her hand... and etc..

my long time nvr eat tis sweet... and my voodoo watch

my long lost friend... e clown... heheheh
this is e belgian chocolate plus e new chocolate that they had itx so chocolatey... WOW>>>

THis is my very very NEW wallet...
My sister brought it for me...
on the left on is her wallet on the right one is mine..
Ouh gosh fuck ya... ITX NOT LYK THOSE OF MY CHEAP WALLET<<<
i so scared i might dirty it so i told her keeep it for me so i can used it on special occasion for SHOW_OFF TIME

i think my tempered began to rising..
my appetite began to drop cos e food i been craving for days still i havent get...
ytd eventhough i when out the whole day..
i only had 1 egg prata in my stomach in the morning...
then chocolate ice cream then thai squid set which i only eat the squid and the meat but not the rice...
I WANT TO DAMN BLOODY EAT THE INDIAN ROJAK WHICH PART OF IT DONT PEOPLE GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm sorry if i change alot...
am i changing for e worse or for e better?
please explain... please talk to me... even i cant take it or even if i burst into tears...
just talk to me... scold me or shout at me or anything... just talk to me...
i'm so use to ur voice... dont keep e silence away....
like waking up from my sleep early morning...
or even ur sudden call...
.....

I been addicted to this song saat terakhir-ST12

Having Migraine early in the morning was already a sign to tell me that im nt going to have a good day...UNLIKELY.... i nvr expect all to come so soon...Losing the most important things-my keys... which is equally to my work key as well....
Hmm...heaven.. Like wise, i only realised it was gone when i reached the doorstep of my work place.. unbelievable...as usual i PANIC>>>PANIC>>>
i was like shld i call Janice, Koko or James.. Ouh my god... ouh my god...
walking back and forth... like an idoit...
so i knew janice must be sleeping but i'm sorry...
so i quickly call janice ask for some advice...
then i call koko... then i call james...
From james voice i knew he was angry and upsad tht i lost it...
then janice inform me tht koko will be on her way down asap...
Was i a nuisance and yes i was also super careless....
I try to msg celeste and cyc... but sadly... celeste nvr reply me... cyc only say then how? then how? 2 msg thtxall...
How e hell shld i know how was i supposed to know... i already t e brink of tears but NO-ONE was there to calm me down... I WAS IN A PANIC STATED>>>AND WHERE ARE ALL THE PEOPLE I NEED? WHERE?
NOT EVEN A CALL TO CHECK HOW I WAS?
i try not to cry and stay as strong as i could... so i was duplicating e key again...
Finally she msg me.... i smiled to see her name appeared on my hp but tht @ 4.50pm... i thought she was going to ask how am i? ask if i'm okay? but i was wrong... she was asking me abt hym... which i seriously dont understand... i really dont understand what u mean... and i hope she will call me so i could hear what she want to say and then understand...please call me...
Not what i expected but suddenly two person want to back out from e kendarat team... fine... since helmy say itx okay... so i will stick to itx okay then... haix even though i was quite up sad disappointed with it.

I'M JUST A GIRL WITH A FRAGILE HEART... EVEN THOUGH I CAN BE HAPPY AT EVERY LITTLE THING BUT AT THE SAME TIME I CAN CRY AT EVERY SMALL THING THAT MAKE ME SAD. ONCE I'M CONFUSED, I GET UPSAD AT E SAME TIME I JUST WAnt to CRY...

=> fine... selamat hari raya haji...

my enchanted life story...
i miss every single moment i have with you...

I'm sorry.... I hope my gerlfriends and bestfriend understand my situation...
I know i being mean... I know tht u felt tht he is ot the right one... worse i know u dont want me to be hurt....
But i dont now how i'm going to stop myself from loving him...
i dont noe...
please stay be with me... even when u know i made i wrg decision... itx hard for me to admit... please gerl... just try to undderstand my unrealistic reason...
i dont want tohurt myself and cry... but i just want to be happy.... i dont want to be alone animore...
itx really lonely...
i dont like it...

i CANT SLEEP...and itx like 1.22am de(frm my hp)
other than chatting with jk and keep replaying the saat terakhir song...
Actually i feel lyk calling up CYC now but i think he might be asleep... haix jk just end his conversation with me...fuck i damn bored now.. i already browse ppl blog... i purposely send blank msg to cyc just to check if he still awake..
hehehe...yes he still awake...

Lets see.... i able to gather all this information for the whole week... so i'll try to refresh everything asap.
Knowing that Swatch is giving out Christmas make a wish for every $50.00 purchase made..
Recently thr this couple who actually spend lyk $139 on a watch for his gerlfriend...
then whe we asked him to fill out the lucky draw thats state... i wish for..bla blah for my PRAWN (his gf name)... i was like wtf u called ur gf prawn=udang.... so ryte after they step out of the shop... i go... huh? udang...udang... hahahaha seafood... ahhhahahah...
why name ur own gf udang=prawn? lolx...

I gather 10 things why i can love someone...
1. He make me smile whenever i saw hym... the sight of him even from far made me smile instead of frown no matter how angry i am...
2. I smile when i think of him....even when itx something bad about him..
3. I willing to wait for his call or msg even when i know it takes forever...
4. I nvr sick and tired of his call or meeting him ever..
5. He able to read my words faster than anyone else...
6. He understand me differently from the rest.
7. He's thr to talk to me when e world all went missing.
8. I nvr feel like giving him any answer to his question.. i love the way he ask me..
9. He make me chase him.
10. I love him... and yes HE KNOWS>cos i make my confession..

People have been talking badly behind my fucking back... YES!!!! i know what the hell u TALKING ABOUT..... so if u really bold enough....stop being a BITCH and say it to my face... be it if i can accept it or not... cos i cant stand ppl giving me that hey bitch...watch whr u going look...
if u really know me well NVR STEP ON MY TAIL....
...
damn i fcukig bored... beat me

Funny thing in life is when u nvr unexpected it to happen it will happen.
Ytd, i told hym tht i'm afraid of getting addicted to it but he say it wont happen.. then slowly i explain tht how easy i'm able get addicted to smth.
Even though our talk does not eve exceeded 5-10 mins at night but then each talk i learn smth more abt hym... Unlike my other talk with others ppl where we can actually talk for hours but then the feeling of knowing them well...nothing...
Sometimes i just dont get it why i must or should repeat myself when at times i told hym many times but he still will ask me... but when he realised that im nt in e mood he will just know it w/out me repeating...
Funny... he remember ALMOST every detail about what i liked or disliked? sometimes i dont even realised tht i told hym..
Love someone doesnt required time or money.
Love someone is abt the feeling.
Loving someone is like making a tattoo, if itx not pain meant itx not deep....


>>all it ever matter now is I lOVE HYM<<

Damn i'm super sleeping to even key any of this damn thing.
Eventhough i'm at 9.15am.. but who cares... i been falling asleep at tis com form just now..
so i'm eating chacos bbq bonanza to keep myself awake.
.....
I'm not sure if i'm really can control my temptation of him any longer..
...
Aniwae, finally after almost a week plus plus...
i meet him again...
He accompany to eat my dinner or should i say supper... over at e MCD. where i also bump into hazmi.
Well, all i can say is that i'm really happy and overwhelmed when i saw hym.
It lyk i could feel my hotness of my own cheek.
After that we sat down and ate some sweet stick..
I find it so funny that each time after he taste it abit he will ask me to taste it..
That's goes e same thing to his drinks and more...
I reall miss hym alot....
and well... i just hope time pause whenever i'm with you.
I find you amusing when u eating those sweet.
Sometimes it really hard to understand you. But no matter what my love for you is true.

This is When Sales goes BAD!!!... getting a transaction takes hours....so usually e blue tack takes in control. The boredom.